ADHD & Social Anxiety - and SSA Disability
Continued from above ...
A year or two or three later, I tried again while I was seeing the bad counselor. I might have had a snowballs chance if I'd have gotten it together well enough to do it when I was still seeing Beth, the good counselor, but the second one never knew me, never even tried. Social Security sent her some kind of evaluation, probably like the witch had to fill out, and once again I was denied. Connie never knew me, obviously. She clearly had no clue I couldn't do things like go through the steps to finding a new counselor, so who knows what she might have written. This time I filled out the paperwork for the appeal, and I got it back from the Social Security office with a nasty little note at the bottom from the person who reviewed it that said, (and I quote) "if you can take care of your dogs, you can get a job!" Yeah, someone really said that. Do you suppose if I were a double amputee or I had a bad back they'd still say that, because I have known such people who couldn't work, but also had dogs. Not real hard to take care of. They let me know when they need to pee, eat, etc., and they don't give me deadlines or give a hoot if I don't understand what they're talking about.
So, how do I find a psychiatrist or counselor or someone who understands these two things and can help me get Disability? My father had been supporting me for the most part all these years, but I lost him a few years ago, and the money he'd invested for my future was swallowed up by the stock market crash in 2008. I'm nearly broke, and life is looking very, very bleak. I can't even go through the process to get some kind of food stamps or anything, so when the well runs dry ... I don't even want to think about it.
I need a psychiatrist who understands and can explain to the SSA what my problem is, and I need someone who will work with me and walk me through this stuff. I get so confused, overwhelmed and discouraged. It took me years to get through that first SSI application, and years to get through the second. It's taken me hours to write this. I need help. Where can I find it? I don't have the confidence or organization skills, or people skills to run all over the place filling out forms and begging for handouts. This isn't a joke. It's not an excuse not to work. For one thing, I have hundreds of thousands of dollars in defaulted student loans that I will never be able to pay back no matter what. If I live to an age at which I could collect Social Security, the whole check is taken from me to pay that debt anyway. Proving my disability would get that debt forgiven (it took me 9 years to earn my Bachelor degree, thinking that a degree would mean employment, but you need much more than a degree to get a job). It was a mistake, but I didn't know that then. I was trying. I really thought that if I had the degree, I would get a good job. I was going to go on for my Masters and Ph.D, but once again, the easy discouragement, disorganization, and problem dealing with people kept me from finishing what I'd started. I doubt it would have made the job situation any better though, but you never know.
Sorry to ramble on so. I never know what is enough and what is too much information. Long read.
Any ideas where I can find a psychiatrist that might be able to help me with both of these conditions, and get me through the SSI tangle without need a billion dollars first since I'm very nearly penniless? Read More At : ...