Hello and welcome. I am sorry your post was overlooked. You are not alone. I have been where you are. I want you to know there is always hope, keep the faith.
My husband relapsed after 11 years clean not back to heroin but to opiates, methadone and xanax. He became a shell of the man I married.
He was Jekyll and Hyde. He was nasty, verbally abusive, argumentative, a liar, deceiver. I first feared he would die of an overdose, get killed copping or die in a car accident, then I wished he would to end the madness and insanity.
We have four children who lived with his madness also.
I lived in, through and with his addiction for years. He wouldn't leave the house because "he paid the bills". I never worked outside the home and had no where to go with my four children and didnt want to "expose" our family sin and secret. Little did I realize at the time that through my actions I enabled him and this continued the cycle.
I began to tell family and close friends. He finally moved out and he got worse before better. a year after he left he went into a Christian rehab. He has now been clean for 3 years and 9 months. We are healing day by day.
Please go to alanon meetings, counsel with a therapist, pastor and get as much support as you can. Limit his money, don't hide his secret, go out without him. We get just as sick as they are physically, emotionally and
mentally. We need healing and restoration.
Sending encouragment, peace, prayers and hope,
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