where do i find help
Hey, sounds like you have had the worst two years imaginable, so sorry for all your loss, truly I am, it must have been so hard to go through your mothers death on your own, so sorry!
Can you not get into a program? Detox centre? Do you not have a good friend who can support you or even stay with a little while?
I used to smoke serious amounts of crack too, but I never went cold turkey from it I did the horrendous thing by swapping it for Heroin, big big mistake on my part and I have just broke free from that recently. I've heard the physical side of detox from crack aren't that bad, mainly restlessness and anxiety but the mental side can be quite tough.
First off you can do this, it's your choice, nobody can make that choice but you, you have to truly want off you know.
Second you must cut all ties with your user friends and dealers, you have to stop associating with them completely and stop going places they go. This one is a must!!!
Third, join your local AA/NA, and or find a counsellor who you can talk too, either one or both of these will be big for you especially if you are alone.
Forth, keep posting on here, before you quit, during the detox and after the initial detox period as the support you will find is invaluable and it helps to have people who understand at hand.
I wish you all the best in everything, go grab your life back my friend, I will be rooting for you, ;) Read More At : ...