Do I have Bipolar or Post Traumatic stress syndrome?
I shall try my best to help if i can.
First i feel sorry of what you've gone through, it's hard especially at this early age. But you should be proud that you took the responsibility of your family, so you acted as if you are the person responsible of your family and not the opposite as it should have been usually.
About bipolarity, usually it can be hereditary, or due to a dysfunctional family, it can be already there and the traumatic events revealed it, in other words you were already predisposed to the disease. It usually appears at your age late adolescence not before. Again a father like yours might have had it you said he behaved in a criminal way towards your mother which is far unusual and especially in civilised countries, where people know well their rights. I heard well that aggression occurs in the west between married couples, but not the extent that they can murder each other. There is divorce as a choice. So the guy could have very well bipolarity disorder himself and when in MIXED STATES (a stage in BP) he can become very violent.
About the pdocs who saw you sure they are better than us here to judge the situation. psychologists can do mistakes but again pdocs usually rush with meds to prevent deterioration. However what is good at least in your case, is that the pdoc put you on lamictal, this is the SAFEST of all the drugs par excellence, you can use it as an "antidepressant" though it isn't, however it's better than using antidepressants alone which you always avoid to be taken alone.
One point you should investigate is to ask your mother whether your father had bipolarity or sort of, if he did, then this shortens the research about you having it or not. Because there is a chance that you got it from him.
Again you should investigate the mood swings. Usually bipolarity from its definition passes by a phase of depression then hyperactivity, i don't see that you had any depressive episodes, which made me skeptical. Why don't you consider another opinion. Note that pdocs can do mistakes. Also bipolarity is becoming very popular nowadays, Oprah winfrey made a show on it, films,...it's the era. So you may have some extreme mood swings only.
There is a say "time is sufficient to show the truth" so give it some more time and be patient and everything will appear on surface.
As to reading about BP and feeling that it fits 100% with you, this happens to all of us. If i read about heart diseases, I shall find that it applies to me. This is called type A personality, the person who is doubtful, chronic worrier, someone who had a lot of bad experiences, you are bound to always wait and expect the worse. So i wouldn't rely on that
good luck and be calm and watch your mood and draw a chart of it on some daily basis then after a while you will recognize whether it fits really Read More At : ...