please dont judge me.
Hello Betty! Welcome to the Anxiety community! We don't judge people here, so don't worry about that. We'll be glad to try to help you!
For starters, I highly suggest that you search our forum (top right of main Anxiety Community page...under "search this community") for similar stories. Try searches with LSD, marijuana, etc. You'll be amazed at how common something like this is. I think it would be very helpful for you to read about others' experiences and also the advice they received.
I read your other thread in the Depression Community, and while I agree with a lot of the replies you got, I disagree with some of it as well. LSD did NOT do any kind of permanent damage to you. What you're experiencing is an emotional response after having the panic attack. People who have had panic attacks almost always go through the same kind of symptoms after, regardless if drugs were involved or not. The LSD has been LONG gone out of your system and trust me, it didn't do any kind of "damage".
Also do a search on "depersonalization" and "derealization". These are two very common effects of anxiety and panic, and what you described is textbook for them. Feeling disconnected, feeling unreal. Depersonalization deals more with a person's feelings of his/her self. DP will cause a person to feel unlike themselves, they report not recognizing themselves, etc. DR is the feeling of unreality, this deals more with how people see themselves in the enviornment. Many describe feeling as though they are in a dream, or like watching their life like they would watch a movie. Again, these are very typical side effects of anxiety, and while they are disturbing while we go through them, when the anxiety is addressed, these feelings will eventually go away as well. And they will not harm you in any way.
I would advise you to seek some professional help in the form of therapy to help get through these issues and put this episode behind you. Again, the drug did not harm you in any way permanently. You are dealing with residual anxiety from a situation that scared you quite badly. Also, it would be wise to avoid alcohol completely. Alcohol is another substance that is horrible for anxiety. It will cause a significant increase in anxiety the day(s) after indulging. You just don't need that in the mix while you're trying to get past this. It will only set you back.
Please stick around and let us know how you're doing. Remember, you are FAR from alone in this. MANY many people end up with anxiety after drug use. Please take the time to search those items I recommended, I think it will take a load off your mind. Read More At : ...