confused with my health, please help
Hello and welcome!
I'm sorry you've been struggling so much. In my unofficial opinion, it sounds a lot like anxiety/panic, especially considering that you've been checked medically a few times, and everything has been okay. Also, you admit to having a history of of anxiety and irrational fears, especially when it comes to death and dying. Have you ever seen a mental health professional about your anxiety? Have you been diagnosed with any kind of mental illness, like an anxiety disorder? If so, have you ever tried to address it? How old are you?
I'm all for people making sure they rule out a possible medical cause for their symptoms, but I also think at some point, it's important to try very hard to stick to the facts. In your case, the "facts" are that after many tests, several ER trips, and after seeing many doctors, there was nothing found. While medicine isn't perfect, I can tell you that if there was something big and bad going on that would put your life at risk (ie with your heart), SOMETHING would have been abnormal. There would have been some kind of red flag.
When dealing with anxiety, one must focus on the FACTS not the FEAR. Therapy would help you tremendously to learn how to do that, how to dismiss the anxious "what if" thoughts. I would recommend asking your doc for a therapy referral ASAP.
And, while I would of course always encourage you to keep the lines of communication open with your doctor, be cautious about repetitive attempts at seeking reassurance, like going to the ER frequently. While your anxiety may be much better after you get that reassurance, it actually feeds the anxiety cycle. A therapist will educate you in how to handle the increasing anxious thoughts and sensations in a more reasonable and appropriate way versus just running to the ER.
I wish you the best, keep us updated, okay? Hang in there! Read More At : ...